This week had been a slightly weird one. And it's just Tuesday. There's been news from all sides from home. And by home I mean the two countries that are now the reference point for this word - Netherlands & Romania (I am still not sure if to be happy and grateful that I have two places that fit that definition or to just feel confused about it. Some more thoughts on that will come later, as I am struggling to find or build at least a temporary home in Malaysia also).
Finding news from home when you are far from it always lives you with mixed feelings. There's the "Wow, that's amazing, how great is that!" (luckily most of the news this week have been positive:)). And there's also the sadness for not being able to share the joy with the people, but mainly the sadness of not sharing the emotions provoked by the news: the panic (good news sometimes come with screaming of sorts...internal or external), the fear (what if), the excitement (that one is easy to comprehend). You can't be with those people properly or you can be there just partly. Not that the people necessarily need you to...it's just sometimes I feel the need to be there. And then there's the "Wow, things are changing" feeling. Which I know sounds ridiculous...of course things are changing! But when you move so far away, you know something major is happening to you. It's just somehow harder to envisage how things will massively change for the people close to you also in the meantime.